okay okay I'm extra gay I know but this was my day yesterday READY??? set and... action
I went and walked to the South Street Sea port there was a latino festival going on I listened to music walked around. I kept getting hit on that was crazy and I chatted with my Erika for some time. Walked home and then my night really started!!!
I cooked dinner and my interested came over. I made pink shrimp penne pasta it came out perfect! and then I made rice crispy treats they didn't come out so prefect. Ahahah but we ate them anyway! we sat around watching the BET awards. Then of course sports center ahahah Yankees swept the mets! And yes I am still smiling from it!
Monday, June 29, 2009
BET
Yes I enjoyed Jamie Fox hosting the BET awards and I love that he didn't just read the teleprompter and I adored that they brought up successful average people. That were doin their thing!!! Highlights for me were NEYO in everything, um.. not Drake no much... Keri hilson dancing and hellooooo MISS ALICIA winning the humanitarian award with Wyclef!!!
Sunday, June 28, 2009
sunny sun son
AHHHHH its an amazing day out!!!! I of course slept in till 1:30 who knows the last time I was able to do that! I had an awesome NYC weekend thus far! Hung with my cuzo yesterday participated in some gay pride events with her and it was pretty cool. NO different from Straight events the only difference is there were no guys. But I had fun with her it was nice to see what she does in her world anyway.
But as soon as these roommates of mine finish up in the bathroom its go time fo me to explore something in NYC I don't know just what yet but I do know there is something out there for me! Ideally I want to walk to the Brooklyn bridge but no one is around right now to do it! & ugh to my displeasure when I brought it up to my new interest he remarked thats a little disney channel!!! WHAT A JERK!! maybe I am too disney ahahah like everyone says. But non the less I am confident that he's going to walk this bridge with me maybe not today but he will.
I'm still all smiles
But as soon as these roommates of mine finish up in the bathroom its go time fo me to explore something in NYC I don't know just what yet but I do know there is something out there for me! Ideally I want to walk to the Brooklyn bridge but no one is around right now to do it! & ugh to my displeasure when I brought it up to my new interest he remarked thats a little disney channel!!! WHAT A JERK!! maybe I am too disney ahahah like everyone says. But non the less I am confident that he's going to walk this bridge with me maybe not today but he will.
I'm still all smiles
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
over the top???
So I need a moment a moment to look back and reflect on my communication methods! Today my home girl told me she didn't want to tell me something because she didn't want a lecture.... I was really hurt!! I only tell her these things because I hate watching this asshole of a guy walk all over here and her not wake up to it. Clearly in our own time we will finish these relationships or mysteries as they never get solved. Look at me and Juice Holla that has taken FOREVER!!! And the lil bastard is still in my air to my allowance. BUT in any event she did tell me and I explained that I want her to tell me things and if she doesn't want comment that's fine.
But am I that mean? that over the top that abrupt with my tact??? OUCH I took a step back and well I constructively am. I'm sorry I just got hurt really badly and I don't ever ever ever want any of my lucky ladies to feel the way I once felt. It hurt in fact it still sends a sharp pain once and again! I never want to lie or change the truth but I suppose I can say it a little nicer from now on! I"M PASSIONATE DAMN IT!!
But am I that mean? that over the top that abrupt with my tact??? OUCH I took a step back and well I constructively am. I'm sorry I just got hurt really badly and I don't ever ever ever want any of my lucky ladies to feel the way I once felt. It hurt in fact it still sends a sharp pain once and again! I never want to lie or change the truth but I suppose I can say it a little nicer from now on! I"M PASSIONATE DAMN IT!!
your a mom & pop I'm a corporation
Life isn't a movie and although I believe in fairy tales and I do not dismiss the fact that happy endings take time. I spent much of my time focused on the enchanted fairy tale. i was previously involved in but I have awoken. Although at moments I am too immersed in the "Disney" lifestyle I can't help it. I truly honestly believe in fairy tales and magical moments. Besides if I don't believe in them who will?? Is it so bad that I just want to smile laugh and use gay little words like cute and adorable or fabulous all day??? I don't know honestly why more people can't stand beside reality and look in from a sky high view! I make it a point to just dream all day long. Maybe I'm dreaming too much?? Do I need to come back down??? NAHHHHH I like it up there in the clouds especially here in NYC I have nothing but supporters my haters took a hike when I hopped on the I95 North. Thank goodness for that!
Although extra tired with the new job and transition to it. I still manage to be soaring on cloud 9 for the past few weeks!! I terribly miss my old routines but I am confident I will soon have new ones! But then there is that confidence thing!! Yes!! I do know who I am not and Yes I do know much about myself! Yes I am CONFIDENT and COMFORTABLE with myself and I think everyone should be. LOVE YOURSELF and be your biggest brightest fan! I'm not full of myself but I am damn Proud of myself. I came this far through this long hard journey with love and support but my own perseverance. My dreams will keep being dreamt and my mouth will continue to spread the peace love and confidence inside me!
Although extra tired with the new job and transition to it. I still manage to be soaring on cloud 9 for the past few weeks!! I terribly miss my old routines but I am confident I will soon have new ones! But then there is that confidence thing!! Yes!! I do know who I am not and Yes I do know much about myself! Yes I am CONFIDENT and COMFORTABLE with myself and I think everyone should be. LOVE YOURSELF and be your biggest brightest fan! I'm not full of myself but I am damn Proud of myself. I came this far through this long hard journey with love and support but my own perseverance. My dreams will keep being dreamt and my mouth will continue to spread the peace love and confidence inside me!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
dat 305 bitches
Well I've been laying off the JUICE!! In the mean time I wanted to shout out a few tings. I am a gay little ball of emotion all the time. I absolutely adore my friends and love my family. I have good days and I have bad days and no matter what I am always smiling. My new recent cute has informed my that he was initially taken back by my perkiness. Maybe its the hood thing maybe its the reality that I am abnormally bright! I explained to him that I am just blessed and time and time again it stands true.
At any given time I can call my friends or family for anything and now that they have my back. Miami trip was no different through busy schedules and birthdays car flooding and late nights my friends made time. They also made the trip better then imagined. I was able to go jet skiing with Diego and let my NYC friends experience the open ocean on the wave runners. Heather was right where I wanted to find her tending the bar at NMB Ale! I loved seeing her back there it brought back amazing memories. I miss those days soo much! I met some of my best friends and life long chicas there! Max and Robbie put out quite the spread for us every night even though his car flooded he made the most of our time. Seeing Money always bring a smile to my face! Shes just a ball of Sunshine and I miss her being across the hall alot. Katie we had the best day!! Wet willies ate up my whole pay check shit they didn't even want my id anymore at the door! But it was worth it my tann is faded and the skin in peeling away now but the fun in the sun that day rocked. I FOUND AN IPOD i mean you don't get any luckier then that! I can go on and on about seeing Kenyatta and having Saulo on the trip. I was lucky it went soo well. We really enjoyed ourselves!!
At any given time I can call my friends or family for anything and now that they have my back. Miami trip was no different through busy schedules and birthdays car flooding and late nights my friends made time. They also made the trip better then imagined. I was able to go jet skiing with Diego and let my NYC friends experience the open ocean on the wave runners. Heather was right where I wanted to find her tending the bar at NMB Ale! I loved seeing her back there it brought back amazing memories. I miss those days soo much! I met some of my best friends and life long chicas there! Max and Robbie put out quite the spread for us every night even though his car flooded he made the most of our time. Seeing Money always bring a smile to my face! Shes just a ball of Sunshine and I miss her being across the hall alot. Katie we had the best day!! Wet willies ate up my whole pay check shit they didn't even want my id anymore at the door! But it was worth it my tann is faded and the skin in peeling away now but the fun in the sun that day rocked. I FOUND AN IPOD i mean you don't get any luckier then that! I can go on and on about seeing Kenyatta and having Saulo on the trip. I was lucky it went soo well. We really enjoyed ourselves!!
IM BACKKKK
So there have been huge and tiny occurrences recently in the life of Miss Helenas! I have been completely out of wack and not following any routine! I havn't seen the news read a paper blogged or even spoken to some of my closest! But that is over now. It has been a crazy past 3 weeks from starting PUMA to the Miami Vacation and now my new shortie.
First and foremost Miami was BUGGED the trip went by so fast I was involved in a hurricane style flooding situation and barely got to see my homies. I did manage to get a sick tan on my last full day so that was the plus side. I enjoyed all the time with the people I had and wish that it wouldn't have flown by. It scares me that I moved yet again and now risk loosing contact with people. I felt like I had never left Miami and really enjoyed myself. I loved it there I miss it there but it wasn't for me right now.
NYC is where I need to be. I am working really hard at my job defiantly thinking about a career and everyday I press myself more and more over the issue of more schooling. Now would be the perfect time with my living situation its just that I don't think I can honestly find a job where I will make what I need to make and work the hours and still go to school. This is something I need to continue to think about and if anyone has any suggestions or feedback please shoot my way. I love shoes and would love to work for the marketing department but I don't know if thats ultimately where I want to be. HELP!!! It kills me to know I work in a mall managing a group of teens that look at me like so this is what you want for yourself.... I know I need to be grateful I set myself up for future success and I need to be patient. Everything happens as Tish reminds me in its own time. Just with this I want to at least know what direction I'm heading in so I can feel more in control. I'm not into the floating by. I never saw myself in a mall after college infact this was my biggest fear. I know I know hard work now big pay out later but damn THE MALL?? comeone I need to get to SOHO asap!!!
First and foremost Miami was BUGGED the trip went by so fast I was involved in a hurricane style flooding situation and barely got to see my homies. I did manage to get a sick tan on my last full day so that was the plus side. I enjoyed all the time with the people I had and wish that it wouldn't have flown by. It scares me that I moved yet again and now risk loosing contact with people. I felt like I had never left Miami and really enjoyed myself. I loved it there I miss it there but it wasn't for me right now.
NYC is where I need to be. I am working really hard at my job defiantly thinking about a career and everyday I press myself more and more over the issue of more schooling. Now would be the perfect time with my living situation its just that I don't think I can honestly find a job where I will make what I need to make and work the hours and still go to school. This is something I need to continue to think about and if anyone has any suggestions or feedback please shoot my way. I love shoes and would love to work for the marketing department but I don't know if thats ultimately where I want to be. HELP!!! It kills me to know I work in a mall managing a group of teens that look at me like so this is what you want for yourself.... I know I need to be grateful I set myself up for future success and I need to be patient. Everything happens as Tish reminds me in its own time. Just with this I want to at least know what direction I'm heading in so I can feel more in control. I'm not into the floating by. I never saw myself in a mall after college infact this was my biggest fear. I know I know hard work now big pay out later but damn THE MALL?? comeone I need to get to SOHO asap!!!
Monday, June 22, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
for my ladies
I miss YOU!!!!!! Im sorry that I havn't been around but I'm so swamped with work and my new blossoming situation
Sunday, June 14, 2009
im not lost
Im not LOST... Im tired Miami was quick and fun too quick too quick!!! so much to write about soo soo much but IM SOO TIRED!! commuting to Puma is more tiring then I had imagined!!!!
TISH LOVE THE NEW PAGE!!!!
blog world I will be back
TISH LOVE THE NEW PAGE!!!!
blog world I will be back
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
sergio Rossi for PUMA
well I am on the red side now and I can't lie although I think adidas is more my brand PUMA has a black station store that only carries collaborations with designers such as Alexander McQueen Sergio Rossi , Scedoni and more.... A lot of it is very fashion forward and somewhat affordable for style junkies. These Rossi heels are amazing and I love them but for $750 even with my 45% off I cant rock them :( all silk made in Italy ahhhh refreshing and saddening all at once!!! These are something I can fit into the style I am searching for!
hypebeast
adidas has my heart and I am a hypebeast right now!!! I'm still trying to find my own style in this city of style junkies and well i really wish adidas thought more about their small sized consumer and offered more. WHY COULDN'T"T THEY PUT ME IN CORPORATE!!!!!!????? I have the answers to their issues30 more hours
ahhhhh only 30 more hours till I will be reunited with the sandy beaches and palm trees that rocked my world not to long ago. In the midst of being afraid of not fulfilling my dreams I quickly jumped off the island of SOBE and speed to the island of Manhattan. My dreams are all here in New York but My growth began in Miami so I can't wait to get back.
I was a little stressed cause all I wanted to do was surprise my friends but in the spirit of them all being excited the beans got spilled! But its cool Miami I'M COMING SOON TO A BEACH NEAR YOU!!!
I'm in need of some sun, sand, tanning oil and lots of hugs from my friends. I love that I can still revisit that part of my life I really miss those people down there!!! I have attachment issues I never like to let go!!!
I was a little stressed cause all I wanted to do was surprise my friends but in the spirit of them all being excited the beans got spilled! But its cool Miami I'M COMING SOON TO A BEACH NEAR YOU!!!
I'm in need of some sun, sand, tanning oil and lots of hugs from my friends. I love that I can still revisit that part of my life I really miss those people down there!!! I have attachment issues I never like to let go!!!
Monday, June 1, 2009
more day dreaming
- I would like to take up photography
- I want to take a creative writing class so that I can write short stories
- I would love to write for a magazine
- i still am thinking about teaching for the inner city schools
- I am wishing I woke up and rosetta stone just appeared
- I am set on paying off my bills by december
- DR PR and Miami will all be visited by 2010 and Chicago too
I can't sleep my foot hurts pretty bad and I'm thinking about this weekend! I'm also thinking about how disappointed I get about things sometimes and my friends sometimes do let me down. Its not the end of the world but sometimes they let me down. I am wishing I was tan right now and hoping this hair color I picked likes me as much as I like it!
day dreaming
I've been itching all day to blog and now Im here and the creative juices just aren't flowing... I had a wonderful day training at the PUMA Black store. It's really crazy to be on the other end of the spectrum from adidas but so far I think I really love it! The store I'm training in is in the Meat Packing so on my break I can go sit in the street at the outside tables and enjoy a peaceful lunch.
The city is just really set up for the people here. There are so many little parks and fairs always going on and so much shopping. I mean it hurts my heart to shop in my dreams here. The meat packing is loaded with Alexander McQueen, Stella, DVF, Scoop theres just so much. I always thought I was somewhat fashionable but UGH NO! I'm totally not!! Its so nice to walk around and day dream about shopping when I finally get the big bucks!!
The city is just really set up for the people here. There are so many little parks and fairs always going on and so much shopping. I mean it hurts my heart to shop in my dreams here. The meat packing is loaded with Alexander McQueen, Stella, DVF, Scoop theres just so much. I always thought I was somewhat fashionable but UGH NO! I'm totally not!! Its so nice to walk around and day dream about shopping when I finally get the big bucks!!
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