in the moment

There comes that point when you just aren't scared. When you just wake up with a smile and you have accepted your surroundings. But you aren't settling you have accepted that the universe is providing you with just what you need. That the universe is making you stronger with your choices and more confident and that the people you have surrounded yourself with push you to do more. That the people around you make you feel better about yourself everyday. We always will want more its human nature but you have to just smile sometimes and look around at the blessings you have an just know in this moment that you are being provided with everything you need for the moment. The moment that you feel something is missing is the moment you need to seek more and that should continue to be the case. But don't forget the enjoy the moments the smiles the sunshine and those seconds that it feels like time has stood still because you can look in the mirror smile and say have a sigh of relief that the world is on your side. even in the worst case scenarios its important to stop and just revisit them as a small challenge. Because in the grand scheme of things change is inevitable and a way of life but if you can find more positive then negative then those small changes will continue topropel you forward.

Its been forever since ive blogged but nothing changes life goes on. We work, we pay bills we pray for success love and find time for smiles and self fulfillment. BUT nothing changes; we start to go through the motions and really start to wonder where it all leads. In life we get to make our own choices they say. What path you take blue collar or white. They say that we have the keys to our own destiny based off of the persistance and self motivation you have. But if that really true? Motive is create for us the idea of not failing by society's standards and the idea of what success is measured by in america seems as tho its pre determined for us. Life ends and you never know when your going to go... you just pray that you get to enjoy the ride while you can. Well ladies and gentleman strap up your seatbelts because for some its a little bit more bumpy then others. WHY?? How come it starts to feel like we don't control our own choices? That its already mapped out for us. in sex and the city she once plagued us with the question do you maybe not get it all? what happens if your living in your dream with great friends and supportive family and an awesome career path. Does love not happen for you? If you fall in love does that mean you focus on family and you forget about your friends and only have time for work and kids? Do you ever focus so much on work that there isn't time for love and friends? How do you fall in love with no friends? the questions always remain a mystery and the greatest mystery is trying to figure out what will fullfill your life. Who chooses that? seems like you don't if you long for the things you don't have. if your always working to provide and forget to live life... what about if your so busy living your life you forget to invite someone else in??? what about the bad choices we making thinking about ourselves and those choices are fullfilling to us and we say FUCK everyone else? what about those choices? what about when you put everyone else first and they forget that you need encouragement and have feelings and thoughts and you can hurt and need someone to support your choices?? choices... life.... love.... pain.... fullfillment... decisions....family.... career..... who decides??? how will you decide

damn time flies... its seems like just yesterday I was giggling in the kitchen with Lyndsay eating all the food in my parents cabinets. Now shes married with a house dogs and im living this amazing single in NYC life. We have been sooo blessed in our lives with our friendship and the way we grew up. Its crazy how time flies though. I've always loved about Lyndsay how she does everything out of the goodness of her heart. never for a response from anyone or to be the king. She just puts other people first. Its just insance how time is cruising I barley ever know what day it is and I am now starting to forget how old i am when i tell people. Is it bad i still accidently tell them 24??

its important we celebrate life and the people around us. That we celebrate and remind them how important they are in our lives. it's true when they say you never know when your going to go. It's important we don't sweat the little things and that we focus on loving each other for better or worse. Everyone makes mistakes and no one is perfect infact its the dwelling on other peoples mistakes that hurts worse and makes you feel worse inside then the moment you forgive and move on. 2011 was about really living life and learning to appretiate it. 2012 will be a continuation and the challange will be finding ways to remind everyone of those things.

dont sweat the small stuff people make mistakes they forget they get caught up people are capable of forgiving and continuing to love