driving miss daisy

it snowed the altima doens' have snowy tires and I havn't even really seen snow in about 2 years let along drive in it! I drove 20 assholes passed me while the roads were slushed with an inch of that crap on it and it dumping by the buckets out of the sky! I was shaking like leaf the whole hour home ( normally 30 mins) I made it safely thank you god! my car also made it safely!

panama

I packed Ive finsihed one journey from Miami to NYC successfully now is the 2nd mission to Panama para Iriras wedding. i am so exceited. i love that shes so simple. All she wants to do is get married in her backyard with all her friends and family present! No big deal with dresses and corrdinating and getting all snazzy. She just wants the people she loves watching her confess her love. Im really happy for her and steve they are going to have a great wedding and we are all going to enjoy Panama!
Im looking forward to carnival and speaking my terrible spanish! I don't think I saved enough money for this trip considering I don't have a job at the moment! But Im going to let god deal with the finances and Im going to enjoy my life over there! i packed a lot but i don't really know if its all that much considering! i want to see the canal the mountians carnvial and most importantly I just want to submerge myself in the culture. I really want to see the cities and the country side while I am there. im looking forward to another stamp on my passport! 11 days in a spanish country here I come. And this summer Im going to go see my family in Puerto Rico no stamps but more culture submerging!

i am

I am

focused
24
in love with Chocolate cake
smart
complicated
talkative
Always Smiling
fabulous
ghetto
tom boy
dreaming big dreams
in touch with my feelings
confused
anxious
loving life
always hungry
fun
hypocrytical ( well all are face it)
politicaly minded
love to dance in my underware
giving
love to be in love
longing to be in love
missing Miami
trying to ditch reality tv ( sorry Kim Kourtney and Klohe)

age old tale

I started this blog as a way to become more FEARLESS WITH MY THOUGHTS during my rebirth of 24. i must say the blogging is like therapy and also keeps me connected. Sometimes I wonder if people read my thoughts and are at all interested or intrigued. But then I realize if they do or don't I love this blogging Tish introduced me too! She often times inspires me through little things she does that keeps me typing away here and writing in my jornal. But when Im driving I get these random thoughts and when I'm surfing.... random thoughts today of course about a stupid boy. ( thats my problem they are boys i need me a MAN!)

I seem to pick the ones that just aren't that into me ( read the book though it was okay...need to see the movie) This particular guy we will call H20 seemed to be vibing with me..... calling haning texting the usual corting protcall. Come to find out he is courting another younger women and is confessing it to the electronic world! Im happy hes happy great but I suddenly stop to compare myself to the other young women and I get lost. Im not jelous let me put the disclaimer out there nor am I full of my self or feel like Im any better. but I always seem to loose to these spoiled brat girls that appear to have life handed to them ( well they brag anyway) this one lives at home is 2 years younger then me and well doens't present herself like a lady more like a sloppy young girl. and Hes totally digging on her. I mean clearly he is the one that needs to step his game up! I would like to think this is just what happens in Miami but the age old man and younger woman saga is now invading my friends parents divorces.

Its been all to easy for all 3 sets of men recently divorced to find women while all my friends moms are sitting back and single. Are they heart broken? are their standards higher? This dating game is tricky stuff

from crystal clear waters to snowy mountians

home sweet home

after such a fabulous weekend in the city I decided to retreat to PA to hang with the family and see my other friends. I made dinner for Lyndsay and Darryl ( my stepfather and Bestie) They were shocked at me cooking... Man i've been gone for a long time I made a fabulous chicken dinner it was amazing if I may say so myself! Now Im just unpacking my life and repacking for Panama! Its so hard this transition phase from house to house but Im adjusting well.

I just feel like arolling stone not sure where to call home yet. This house isn't the house I grew up in its the new house so its different being here and not exactly homely! But i love the house non the less and its great to be home!

omg

i just had a close encounter and thought that someone Im avoiding found me on facebook chat but it was his spam that contacted me. I responded cause I couldn't help myself and wonder why the strange message. But he didn't respond. ( maybe part of me wanted him to ) but for right now its all about me in NYC can't have some silly boy getting in my mix! Now to keep focused!

Mike

Also at the show while my silly star struck ass was busy staring at Reggie bush and the Doll Kimmy Make Yaggliy the gentleman that Eirlean reffered me to and put me up for the position was right there and I didn't notice it was him. As E was speaking to him she called me over and worked me into the conversation. (Shes too good at this game. )

Im suppose to have a second interview with him this week before Panama. He was stunned I would be in Panama for more then a week for a wedding but I laughed explained we are spanish thats how we get down! E said the conversation went well. So the fingers are still crossed but we are making head way!!! I know my opportunity will knock on my door at my time. ( tish I get a little impatient)

Prize of a life time

I need to buy a lap top I can't stay on top of my blogging without it!!!! but I do have to say this entire transition so far hasn't fallen short of magical! I absolutly had the most amazing weekend with my co-workers from the miami store and I am in love with them all. this is my weekend so you can feel as though you were there!
the kids arrived I managed to make it to the air port without getting lost and without them waiting to long. ( their flight was delayed due to not enough fuel. i found it strange they relayed that message to a plane of nervous fliers) We then made it to the hotel it was a group effort. Well KAthy and I got us there Lambert and Josh were no help with directions!
Hotel Empire was amazingly so New YOrk. The rooms were small and modern. The shower was strange there was one door and an amazing head directly above you and you are on top of wooden panels! ( not easy to not get your hair wet but us ladies all managed)

Ps the kardashians were staying at our same hotel. Kim and Klohe were there ( courtney my favorite was not)

The days were cold but fun we all traveled together took lots of pictures and wondered around the city meeting each others friends and family and showing off our stomping grounds

The fashion show was an expierence. i didn't have a back stage pass which turned out to be better since I got a seat for the show. but it was a great expierence. For my first show I'll take it. I sat all the way in the back behind some pole I couldn't see without a little weave and bob but i managed! Then Front row was Kanye West, Reggie Bush & the doll herself Kimmy Kardashian ( i kinda thought the K girls wanted to be me since they went to my show and stayed in My hotel)

The cutest part were the kids during the show. Eirlean told me back stage was set up for hair make up and board games for the kids. i always envisioned coke and champagne were served so i was glad to hear it was sorry and crayons for the kids. The collection was interesting. Some of it should never hit production while a good majority of it was pretty fly and unaffordable for me but a girl can dream. The models needed cheese steaks and were all very cold looking. The international girls are running the runway they all looked like tall Russians

I loved the show but more importantly I loved after the show. We all went to the hotel ripped off our dresses and highheels ( poor E$ shoes that were very expensive futeristic y3 heels had her in some seroious pain. She was not pleased but a trooper non the less!) We all went to dinner and Angie came too which always makes me smile to see her and Eirleans faces light up around each other. We all ate and drank and had great convo before heading our seperate ways.

Today the kids made their free shoes I didn't get one but i didnt complain. My prize of a lifetime is just having Eirlean by my side for all of this transitioning and job hunting. Shes really continuing to go above and beyond

it put tears in my eyes to say good bye but its just see you later!

radio

The radio today is clouded with people and their gutter stricken minds, close minded opinions and loop of top 40 hits over and over. But today i heard something great! he said STOP USING THE ExCUSE RECESSION!! the more people continue to amp up there is a recession going on the more they use the excuse of recession to play up their lazyness!! I found that to be true!

slvr

I interviewed today! fingers are still crossed they told me I'd hear back at the end of next week so I am still unemployed! The store was nice its very green and simple. The clothes are high end fashion and very basic! The logos are small the sizes are tight its nothing like the loud originals store!!! I think I would enjoy working there after meeting people. I hope that they loved me as much I would love the opportunity. Then come to find out Kelliys boy works for an add agency in times square. They made lots of cuts though and aren't hiring. This is going to be tough here But I';m gonna excel I know it!

the good luck continues

HOLY SHIT!!!! NEW YORK is FREEZEING!! but the apt Im staying at is freaking amazing!!! Its a true myth. No one would believes me when i say its HUGE!!! there is soooo much closet space and plenty of room for me. Im just staying here as a transition till I get my money up and life together. Pollo's place is sick 2 rooms the dinning room as a section that cuts off and a private door so we are making it into a room for me!!!! Its way better then i ever imagined! the view is the Manhattan Bridge and over looking the water. Its not crystal blue like the water outside Tish 7 Beckys spot but the Bridge is AMAZING!! and I can see the Brooklyn Bridge too!!! Im freaking loving this so far

Except there is no where to park my car and its cold. The parking garage is $300 monthly I don't have that so i guess searching for a street spot for 30 mins to an hour is gonna be my new lifestyle!!!

im HERE!!!!

I made it to PA!!! finally after 23 hours of driving 2 sodas a shit load of bad snacks!!! Miss Kelliy and I made it we stopped to horse around at south of the border and a few other stops along the way The ride was great!!! We searched for a Boston Market from Miami all the way I could taste the juicy all white meat chicken but to my disbelief there was only 1 in Virginia and i missed it. We drove right past the exit!!!!!!!!! I was soo hungry and I ate blimpuies at 10 pm in NJ!!! But we made it and I am loving the ice cold weather ( a little bit) But now I am unpacked and ready to hit the city!!!!

IM HERE its unreal Ill get into emotional details later!!! I can't freaking believe Im not going back and the 1 low point was on Hot 97 they were talking about how great Miami is right now and How its the spot!! BUT NYC I AM HERE!!!!!!!!

1 day

the presure is here its tommorow and my whole world changes I might cry but Im so excited and I can't wait!!! Ive been counting for the past 5 years till this moment and tonight Im gonna enjoy Miami as though it is floating off the map in the morning!!! PF changs wth 20 of my friends will be more then a blast I am sure and Kelliy is sick as hell and I need her to rest up and drive me to NYC!!!! wooohooo

DIVA

Just when Beyonce blows up she changes the word forever!! My money refered to me as a diva in a very negative tone. She can't say bitch shes too sweet so she explained its my way or the high way. COnsidering I am hitting the I 95 tommorow It is my way or the highway. We fought we made up... im still hurt I didn't like the fight I didn't like to not see each others points of view. I think we are both just hurting im leaving but I don't want me to be a negative Diva. YUCK! I do admit my friends spoil me and at times i am needy and want things my way but I in turn do the same for them!!! Its all good I will always love that girl even if she did wanna call me a abitch and could only say DIVA!

those golden yellow glazed to perfection donuts from publix along with that round chocolate layer cake they have there are my obsessions in life. Telicias mother once said she liked cake more then the D***. I was shocked at her analegy but damn the women was serious about cake and well I am obsessed as well. I buy the box and eat like 3 on my own. I would eat all six but I stop and think. IM lying Id eat all 6 but theres always someone else trying to get into my golden perfection. YUM!

I just had 2

My baby brother turned 21!!!! Damn Thats making me feel old, Ive yet to accept hes growing up the same way I have. Im so excited this week when I go home I can actually take him out for a few drinks! Its gonna be wonderful... Im so exctied to get home and be with my family and actually not be racing around cause I have a flight to catch. My dad is waiting for me to arrive and so Is Darryl. I wish my mom was going to be around for the fesitivties but I guess since my life has been too much like a fairytale latly something has to be not so perfect! I seriously don't think I can ask for more my amazing life is so perfect right now. My brothers gonna be home and my friends are gonna be around and things just are on the up and up!!!!

sundays

Sundays are always my favorite today We played tennis in the hollywood Park. Money, Boogs, Spanz plus Pat. I think its great Pat is so into the things Money wants him to be there to do. Poor guy was stuck in the park with us but it was great. I like the physical activities on Sundays Im sure this wont leave me as sore as Jet ski sunday did with D Baby. But this was my last one in Miami!!! But Next Sunday FASHION WEEK IN NY WOOHOOOOO

fiesta

The farewell fiesta last night was amazing!!! even the cake in my hair wasn't so bad! I just absolutely love all of my friends. I really feel like I am on top the world and that nothing can bring me down! They say when your up your up! My rebirth has been off to a fantastic start! 

I sold the couch thats good too! too bad the set went flying down the I 95! So there was only 1 piece left to sell it sold things are back on track! 

h2o

I love the views of the water Its amazing to me how you can see all the way out to the ocean when your on Biscayne I know I've lived here for years but Im still amazed at the beauty of it!

my blessings continue I got a hair appointment with my lady today and yesterday she was booked! LOVE IT!!!!!

1 week

this is it Im at the wire Ive come to that last week and Ive been making the most of it! Despite being sick in the start of the week Im better now and in high spirits. I have enjoyed a few intimate outtings with some close friends as I get ready to leave... I know I will visit but I never know how peoples paths will change so Im making the most. Last night was dinner with a friend he was someone I once was romantically into but the boat never took off. NOw the ship has sailed but we discussed it over a wonderful dinner. It was nice to be honest with my feelings about a relationship for once. It was nice to hear for once what someones real thoughts were. He told me it was a shame we were never both ready at the same time for each other. Its true hes great I have a lot of love for him I always have maybe in the future we will be for each other for now we are better as friends who motivate each other. Besides I love having him in my life. It would be a shame to loose him as that by complicating things. It didn't work out so well for joseph and I.

Its proving to be an emotional week already and tommorow is the "BIG Farewell Fiesta" !! Im ready though to get this moving so a few more nights of partying like a rock star before I hit it to the streets 

every girls dream

OMG!!! Im going thats right IM going to be part of the biggest event in Bryant Park Next week oh thats right you guessed it! ANd for those that didn;t IM GOING TO FASHION WEEK!!!!!!! Im going to be going to the Y3 Show then we will be having dinner with the head designers from Y3 adidas and SLVR!!! OMG this is every vogue reading INSTYLE following yogurt eating girls dream!!! I feel like IM floating on a cloud I don't know what  I did to deserve this amazing opportunity But Im so gratfull for it!!!

IM GOING TO FASHION WEEK HOLY SHIT!!!!!!

SLVR

I finally heard back from SLVR!!! My official interview Is in NYC on Friday the 13th at NOON!!! I know its gonna be great! Took them long enough to get back to me but damn... adidas has treated me good as a company thus far and E manning as been the most amazing mentor ever... She went above and beyond again guess were im going................

Cross our fingers this job is what I want it to be!

Yatta

WOW!!! I dont even know where to begin I have no internet at all so blogging hasnt occured since my G1 does not allow it (stupid "advanced" phone) But WHOA! Ive had a hell of a week! I just discovered that Im the luckiest little bitch on the planet. Kenyatta came to visit from Atlanta with Jasmine the girls were amazed at my positive mature outlook on things. It was just nice to have them around.... I miss the good old days with them. Jazzys kids are soo big its unreal. Yatta asked how I managed to find a whole new circle of friends to spoil me and treat me like a princess just lucky I guess!!! Im so greatful for all of them near or far best friends or people I speak with periodically i still have love