my lost watch

soo as no one knows i lost my favorite invicta watch in queens on the beach! it made me cry literally it was one of my favorite gifts ever that meant the world to me that i love soooo much!! and its gone and i can't find another one so this one is going to have to due its my second love from micheal kors my other lover!! there is only 1 left at Macys I NEED IT

my girls

LOVE these bitches and they are so freaking funny!!!! Why did they go to Miami when i left :(

SEPTEMBER AHHHHH

OMG!! This month is JAM PACKED!! too much to do so little time... I suppose it feels good as I have been still searching for my NYC niche!! Tish comes Wed Kea comes the following wed then Kelliy comes and MY MOMMY COMES HOME!!!!! I can't wait I miss her soo much I am soe xcited I have been awaiting Sept 18th for 9 months!! wooohooo its almost here!!!

I'm still job searching looking for my perfect situation and in the mean time staying a hard working ray of sunshine at PUMA! Until the other brother offers me a job wink wink!!

I am not into the 64 degree weather today!! I WANT SUNSHINE!!

friends?? amigos????

HUmmm so last night I had a wonderful time! I met up with Andrew who is my friend but not close friend. He invited me to dinner I assumed with his homies. Well upon my arrival it was with his folks!!! ekkkk lucky for me I am mommy proof and dinner was great.
So mommy proof she invited nad insisted I go back to the house. I did and was it the best move EVER!! Her husband and her have a garden and sent this poor princess home with some much needed fresh fruits and veggies. Served me this amazing Dulce de leche and the best damn green peach mint flavored organic homemade tea I have ever drank!!! damn it was soo good, Snapple should buy the recipe. it was really a great evening we had a lot of fun and it was soo random.
It really made me miss my mom of course but I'm going to see her sooo soon I can feel her hugging me and squeezing me already!! ahhhhh I can't wait.

But friends pop out of the strangest places for me. I miss my Miami people so its always nice to have a visitor from the 305!!!

back at teh drawing board

This whole waking up to dreams and magical feelings while we are parading around in our twenties is exciting, exhausting and a wake up call. I'm so proud of my friends whos wildest dreams are becoming careers and goals reached. From celebrity chefs, business owners soon to be musical sensations and well perfect moms! I'm soo proud of everyone.

My dreams are still alive and kicking too sometimes i have to pinch myself wake up and come back to reality. I need often to stop floating on my cloud and come down. There are so many things I have wanted to do but like Drake said over all I wanna just be successful.

Radio personality
president to the USA ( since I was in 4th grade my dream ha)
Marketing Director for Ralph Lauren
Own a Jamba Juice
Open a Skate Park
just live on an island as a local
Shoe model ( keep the shoes!!)
teacher for the inner city schools
soccer mom
event Coordinator
BARTENDER AGAIN!!! $$$$$$

ahhh soo many dreams soo much time to try it all. I'm sure I will check a few off my list soon for now I am rewriting the Resume and finding away back to NYC enough of the Jersey commute. Come on PUMA gimmie a transfer so I don't just pounce away!!!!

hummmm hummmm philly was dope... work is whatever still and I am so into this tattoo idea lately hummm hummm its totally not me!!! maybe i'll just change my hair color I can't get a tattoo my parents would never be cool with it! ha ha

tgif

AHHH good old Friday last day of the work week for me this week1 Already ready for it to be 930 PM at work!!! Any who its an amazing NYC morning I love in the morning the cool breeze over looking the east river and seeing the cars hustle and bustle down the Bridge and the FDR!

Summer is a beautiful time I think I loved Miami so much because of the ever lasting sunshine. BUT I'm not thinking about winter yet!!! Enjoying the day hoping everyone around me is as well

the job search is still on tonight Money had some suggestions that are being taken into some serious consideration!!! If anyone else out there in the world has any please send them to me anyway possible text, call blog, smoke signal, prayer message in a bottle. I'll take the suggestions!!! In the mean time my ass needs to stay positive in the red cat house because that's the bread and butter the future at the moment!!!

The big picture

WOW! finally Money and i fixed the friend situation after seriously 2 months. its insane how 2 people look at the picture completely different and are best friends. But that's what makes us best friends. I adore her and her open minded thought process and I hope that she loves my honesty. We discussed it all the whole email our friendship. its all on the table now. Nothing in the dark I put it all out there ( of course i cried Imma sap) it just felt amazing to hug her and know everything is better.
It was breaking my heart to feel that she felt negative anything about our friendship. Good communication and and open mind can go along way. No one had to say I'm sorry we both spoke our piece and understood the other one. I don't wanna go through this with her or anyone ever again. i value my friendships with all of them. It hurt terribly and now the wound is mended. no More torture in thinking what she is thinking. No more pain in not calling my bff to tell her about my day! ahhh the good life!!!

its crazy how you can see the same situation so intensely different!!! It feels good to have the universe back in line!

you the best you the fukn best!!! ahhh feeling on top of the world today! I love living in NYC!!! Keas coming for a week shes bringing Sharon along for a few days! We are about to get it in woooohoooo and maybe I'll go get my job back at adidas cause I dunno how I'm feelin about this PUMA thing!! I know I wanted it really bad but like many things they aren't always what they seem to be!!

im sleepy going to bed lunch packed for tomorrow ready to take on the world!!!!

karma

its a bitch!!! and I hate people taking advantage of a good thing or not appreciating their friendships! This bitch ass that lives with us better come get his shit outta my apt!!! Cause I do not want to see my roomie upset that his friend is a scumbag user! How are you just gonna have your stuff somewhere that you never come to and never care about. Your so lucky those Louie glasses aren't here cause they would be MINE!

Why would you piss where you sleep. Pollo goes above and beyond for EVERY SINGLE person he meets and this kid is his "best friend" treating him like this. Do people have no shame these days?? Does your mother know you treat people like this??? I'm disgusted for my roomie :( I'm not telling Angie either cause he's not ready for her side to meet his side sooo sad people aren't good friends these days!!!

The Puma way says that change is a challenge and that we should accept the challenge of change! words I have been striving lately to live by and well they put it together perfectly!

involved

I am actively going to be part of Iraria setting up her new women's group
I am looking for a Spanish class to take
I am still exploring new options for my future as far as schooling
Sallie Mae and I are going to be back on track after tomorrow
I miss my Mommy a great deal and can't wait to hug her
Racheal Ray & I have a new found love affair my cooking has stepped its game up
Today I didn't get tan at the beach :(
Victor was right I do be feelin myself and I am not gonna stop!!
While at work I am going to continue to strive to be the best!!!
Kea is coming up and I am really looking forward to a month of exploration and new discoveries of the north east!!!
Money still hasn't called and shes been in NJ for 3 days :(
I am anxiously awaiting the video from T La C
I'm gonna start working out again

blonde

Kourtney is my favorite but I am LOVING KIMS BLONDE!!!! I am feeling a little daring. Kea of course pointed out to me why is it that when we are challanged to change our hair is the first to suffer? Reggie broke her heart she changed her look.... I do the same I am not fearless however last month mine was long and black this month I am chopped up with Bangs and exploring for a new color. Change is not something I am good at but as time passes it becomes easier to change hair color, cities, jobs friends and change the way people treat me! I am an advocate for change and I demand respect for everyone from everyone starting with myself! So whether it is some fabulous rich socialite dealing with change , a chesse loving princess or one of my stunning ladies I want everyone to step to changing more then just their hair color but how they are respected by those in their air!

the friends

Well last week was awesome!!! I absolutely had a rocking good time with Max and his Friend Chad Terika too!! The 3 of them were NYC virgins!!! It was the nuttiest thing they didn't know anything!!! It was delightful to watch them in pure amazement at the building sizes, the lights, the traffic, how people are crawling everywhere like roaches! They really were taken back by the experience. We dinned we walked we ate we drank and we saw the sights! Steak dinners cocktails chillin on the block. My favorite stop was finally eating at Rice to Riches from Sex & the City!! I especially just loved the hugs.... The hugs kept going when Tish & Stevie came along in Union Square park!

They are NyC veterans from other cities it was nice to hug them and learn about their experiences with the City. Shes a big place this city and lots of people manage to have such similar engagements here. Stevie was informative about a few places to visit. he also shared that he too had similar issues meeting people. It was overall just refreshing to see their smiling in love faces.

Joey T stopped in from Cali we had a rooftop encounter took a few quick pictures hugged it out and off we went. Seeing familiar faces in your new home is a great feeling. I'm so proud of everyone and their movements. From opening companies to staring in music videos or moving across country to pursue a dream. often times we forget to stop smell the roses and remind people how special they are! They certainly all made me feel like the most luck girl in nyc

monday

what a helss of a great weekend will report soon about the fabulous NYC things we did!!! For now I know this is the FRESH start to a FRESH week and a FRESH positive move forward!!! The sun is shinning I'm NOT running late and well the magic is in the air!!!

Ralph Lauren

In watching the news today I discovered that Ralph Lauren was profitable this quarter!!! What does that mean you ask. Perhaps that was my sign to follow my previous dreams as a 15 year old and work as a buyer for Ralphie Baby!!!! THEY ARE HIRING!!! Now if I can find an in to the company that would be great!!! Time to put my head forward and start discovering what the next step is!!!!!

I don't think Eirlean is gonna bail me outta this one

please help

my school loans are coming in from all directions!!! I really took out that much money for the degree i don't use???? OMG!! I am sufficating in debt over that "education" i recieved and now i got a letter from another company I did not even know I owed :( i'm really freaking out over this... How in the world do they want me to pay all of this off and still eat????

Obama if your out there CALL ME!!! I need your help

I am so serious this is out of control !!! ahhhhh I want to go back to school and I will never ever be done paying for the first round ! I can't even afford to file an application :(

I'm still smiling though At least i have a degree

tat tat tat it up

I'm not one for tattoos i express this all the time!! I have yet to find anything that means enough to me to be placed on my blank canvas for life.... however lately I have been falling in love with some interestingly placed tats and I might just be considering.... lets not get to excited though i don't think I am wild enough for this Thats RIGHT I"M NOT WILD!!!!

NYC update!!

The city life ahhhhhh!!!!

So the apt is coming along the 3rd roomie is moving out tomorrow so that means a bigger room for me YEA!! Honestly work is kicking my ass who the hell would have thought that working a retail job would be so demanding!!!??? I have to say I am still searching for something that is more fulfilling but this for now is keeping gas in my car, food on my table and nourishing the part of me that stays humble and grateful to be employed in this world! ( yeah yeah i like run on sentences!!) looking forward to this weekend a ton of people will be in NYC this weekend and I need a good visit from my Miami homies. Hopefully they bring all that warm sun shinny weather!! Can't wait for Thursday to be off and just wear my new cowboy boots!!! going to be smiling because I am in charge of my life and safely tucked in my Manhattan apartment living the dream!!