Its been forever since ive blogged but nothing changes life goes on. We work, we pay bills we pray for success love and find time for smiles and self fulfillment. BUT nothing changes; we start to go through the motions and really start to wonder where it all leads. In life we get to make our own choices they say. What path you take blue collar or white. They say that we have the keys to our own destiny based off of the persistance and self motivation you have. But if that really true? Motive is create for us the idea of not failing by society's standards and the idea of what success is measured by in america seems as tho its pre determined for us. Life ends and you never know when your going to go... you just pray that you get to enjoy the ride while you can. Well ladies and gentleman strap up your seatbelts because for some its a little bit more bumpy then others. WHY?? How come it starts to feel like we don't control our own choices? That its already mapped out for us. in sex and the city she once plagued us with the question do you maybe not get it all? what happens if your living in your dream with great friends and supportive family and an awesome career path. Does love not happen for you? If you fall in love does that mean you focus on family and you forget about your friends and only have time for work and kids? Do you ever focus so much on work that there isn't time for love and friends? How do you fall in love with no friends? the questions always remain a mystery and the greatest mystery is trying to figure out what will fullfill your life. Who chooses that? seems like you don't if you long for the things you don't have. if your always working to provide and forget to live life... what about if your so busy living your life you forget to invite someone else in??? what about the bad choices we making thinking about ourselves and those choices are fullfilling to us and we say FUCK everyone else? what about those choices? what about when you put everyone else first and they forget that you need encouragement and have feelings and thoughts and you can hurt and need someone to support your choices?? choices... life.... love.... pain.... fullfillment... decisions....family.... career..... who decides??? how will you decide