i trying to explain it

in this life there are sooo many i mean countless moments that you can't explain!! an enorumous amount of feels that play into the countless moments that we can't explain!!! The thing is we can sit around trying to explain them because then we miss out on living them. Many of those moments we want to erase and change and others we want to cherish and roll around in the smell of them forever.

We always make it seem like if we can explain them we will understand them more. As though if unexplainable moments explained will bring some new feeling of content of accomplishment to a situation. what happens is we get lost and wrapped up trying to explain some moments and miss our on the actual moment.

there are so many feelings that you can explain like trust and the feeling of safe. You have it with some ppl and with others the chemistry just doens't exist and you can try and try but you just can't create it. The feeling of joy is created from within and then bubbles to the surface. The feeling of anger is generally mustered from the outside then you explode from the inside out. the confusing emotion for most is the dscontentment you feel with certian situations. when you can't explain the way you feel good bad or indifferent. thats when the frustration occurs and thats when things get all nutty. When you start to feel like you are losing your control or the balance is gone because it was unexplainable. or maybe it is explainable but in your world you can't or wont or don't want to explain the feeling aloud. are we not explaining it because we are trying and we can't or can we and we just don't want to? What to do with these mixed emotions.

i just sleep on them and wait for another moment when someone glances in your eyes with that warm sloshy feeling.... wait for a random thank you a smile from a stranger... i wait for the unexplainable chemistry force between someone that for a moment sweeps me off my feet even if they don't know it. for now while I can't explain ill dream because I don't need to explain the dreams.