Good times

It's tough when u get so use to a certain lifestyle to get acclimated to something new. But what if the something new is ur dream?? My dream was to be here in NYC and to continue my path to success. My success path was always about work and bringing on the bacon to a family I assumed would just occur. Never in my timeline did I leave space to find mr right lol. I'm not "looking" now bit I wouldn't mind if he showed up soon . Single in new York is about as common as bagel trucks in the morning everywhere! But what keeps me okay with single in knowing I've got real friends whom I love being around so single ain't bad as long as u have alternative company

It's crazy how emotions are uncontrollable and how intense you can feel. It doesn't matter if it's love toward someone or the way you feel about work or maybe just a situation. Emotions run right through you and some you can't even control. I can't help I love the way he smells and I can't help that his smile will always make me weak in the knees. Its an amazing feeling that a friend can hug your problems away. everytime I smell certain detergent it reminds me of brooklyn and puerto Rico . I can't even describe the warm and free sensation I feel when sunlight touches my skin. I hate the time of the month when water falls through my eyes. I do know I love when he calls me helenas :) I'm just a girl in the world filled with emotion and energy to share . My moms cupcakes me me smile and my dads laugh is contagious. I know I love the way the ocean meets the surface and how when the waves crash it's as though they drag your problems off to sea and u can be free. The nervous feeling I get around him and how I turn into a little school girl makes me Smh. At night I lay in bed and listen to the cars drive over the bridge and watch the sunset over NYC from my window. It's all so surreal to me that I'm here and this is my amazing life Im not a movie star or model and well a singing career wouldn't ever happen either. But my dreams to be surrounded by people I love has come true. Nope I'm not married and maybe he doesn't smile the same way when he sees me . But I have way more then 1 girl might get in a life time ! I'm successful have a huge!!! Amazing family I'm a dreamer and although I believe in fairy tales I know the reality. 2011 is all me baby and my emotions my wonderful feelings

true love

Christmas this year was great!My brother and I have grown to really enjoy the moments we get to spend together. My family has grown to be one solid unit after many years and it bring me great joy. But this Christmas i have again had my faith in true love reaffirmed.

Watching Darryl's parents over the holiday was a true act of love. As his father has grown increasingly ill his mother has been by his side for every moment and every beck and call. Taking care of an old man is no easy task to begin with. But as a fussy man grows older and more ill more patience are necessary.

The love in which she tends to him is nearly indescribable. Throughout the morning she had a joyful look as she made an individual breakfast for each person. She patiently awaited her husband to finish his and met every request he had. She then cleaned and gifted everyone. Her smiles lite up the room. But throughout the weekend she tended to his needs and moved slow with him. She sat with him she held him at all times she moved at his pace. She never once so much as lifted a brow or sighed heavy. Everything she did she did with love and it pleased her to assist the man she loves.

They did say for better or worse sick or poor till death do them part. They are living to the vows they promised and they have given another example of true love. Christmas was no special event she will continue these actions forever

Why is it that we don't see the signs ??? Are we blind deaf dumb stupid or all of the above??? I mean IRS so bad at times we literally need to see it in writing it feels like . nothing like a kick me while I'm down to get the weekend started. Or why do we get drawn to people who don't want the same things???? Is it that they pretend they don't see it??? Or are we not as great as we amp each other to be??? Why does every friend tell me I'm amazing but them I loose some of my "best friends " or guys tell girls your what every guy wants soooo what the hell? It seems az though the answers to thes questions are as lost as the truth about the earths' development.

I just know I can't lie to the cruel cold world I wanna scream and shake him and jump up and down and let him know we could make things work if u gave it a chance; if I gave it a chance. But instead I will smile at you and pretend I know nothing about your relationship outside of our friendship! I will sit there and watch you be upset and know you would deserve better. I know I care about you and wouldn't ever want u to feel sadness or pain.

The question does remain though maybe it's not her jut maybe it's him. MAybe she shuns him and he's finally feeling hurt..... Ouch there are 2 sides and I'm only seeing 1 there is more to him then I get to see. My time with you isnt the whole you it's part. I love and adore our special bond but I wonder what's She got??? What did you do??? Until then I'm walking away I don't need a bigger sign then way hinge you be upset or sad or cranky. Those actions and emotions mean hour not with me so good night cold cruel world. Tomorrow is another day And today I followed the road signs

sometimes i have to stop and pinch myself! I just never dreamed I would be so lucky in life. We always as children dream these big dreams of wants and needs like jobs and material objects but we don't often say when I grow up I wanna feel safe and secure.
Often times we take for grante the smiles and laughs we share but bitch and moan when sadness occurs. We are not always thankful for the positive but cant stop complaining at the nagative.

We all set different goals and wants in life and although not always 100% satisfied everyone around me has it pretty damn good. I know it because i have it amazing. I've loved my job here in NYC and made some really A+ friends. and my older friends havn't left me out to dry either. I just am smiling knowing i picked the best of the bunch and I enjoy my time laughing till i can't breathe, smiling so hard my face hurts and spending our last few pennies on each other. xoxox

hebron plantation

Once again adidas has proven to give me an experience I had not earlier imagined. I have been in Florence Kentuky for the last 7 days. living out of a suitcase rocking nothing but 3 stripes at the Hebron tent sale.

When I say we have been doing work I'm hoping that the emphasis of work really comes acorss. Our team of selected employees from across the country came together to put on a 3 days sale and gross over 1 million dollars. It was amazing totally amazing.
Tuesday we flew in ate dinner and introduced ourselves to our new adifamilia. Wed at 8:30 am in 50 degree weather we reported and began unloading 10 trucks worth of merchandise. Finally when Thursday night rolled around after 2 12 hour days we got it all together.

Friday morning people camped out from 4 am to shop the adidas bargains of sneakers, athletic apparel and smiles on kids faces were priceless. The people of Hebron love us and we have grown to love each other.

This company has proven to change people into the better by offering them different situations. I came in alone and ready to work I'm leaving tired well feed and with a few new vaction spots to visit my new friends. We eat like kings every day and night we laugh we joke we have drinks and swim together. As much as I have been dying to get back to NYC and be with my crew. I am going to miss my new adi-friends from HEEEbbronnnn

only female in my crew

I didn't plan it but i happened again the energy is crazy in adidas. i always felt like my Miami crew was so golden and they totally are nothing ever changed. People i meat there will be in my life forever.

But i totally have met some great people in my new store and we have a great vibe together. I've been lucky to share some great events stories and laughs with them. Even some tears.