driving miss daisy

it snowed the altima doens' have snowy tires and I havn't even really seen snow in about 2 years let along drive in it! I drove 20 assholes passed me while the roads were slushed with an inch of that crap on it and it dumping by the buckets out of the sky! I was shaking like leaf the whole hour home ( normally 30 mins) I made it safely thank you god! my car also made it safely!

panama

I packed Ive finsihed one journey from Miami to NYC successfully now is the 2nd mission to Panama para Iriras wedding. i am so exceited. i love that shes so simple. All she wants to do is get married in her backyard with all her friends and family present! No big deal with dresses and corrdinating and getting all snazzy. She just wants the people she loves watching her confess her love. Im really happy for her and steve they are going to have a great wedding and we are all going to enjoy Panama!
Im looking forward to carnival and speaking my terrible spanish! I don't think I saved enough money for this trip considering I don't have a job at the moment! But Im going to let god deal with the finances and Im going to enjoy my life over there! i packed a lot but i don't really know if its all that much considering! i want to see the canal the mountians carnvial and most importantly I just want to submerge myself in the culture. I really want to see the cities and the country side while I am there. im looking forward to another stamp on my passport! 11 days in a spanish country here I come. And this summer Im going to go see my family in Puerto Rico no stamps but more culture submerging!

i am

I am

focused
24
in love with Chocolate cake
smart
complicated
talkative
Always Smiling
fabulous
ghetto
tom boy
dreaming big dreams
in touch with my feelings
confused
anxious
loving life
always hungry
fun
hypocrytical ( well all are face it)
politicaly minded
love to dance in my underware
giving
love to be in love
longing to be in love
missing Miami
trying to ditch reality tv ( sorry Kim Kourtney and Klohe)

age old tale

I started this blog as a way to become more FEARLESS WITH MY THOUGHTS during my rebirth of 24. i must say the blogging is like therapy and also keeps me connected. Sometimes I wonder if people read my thoughts and are at all interested or intrigued. But then I realize if they do or don't I love this blogging Tish introduced me too! She often times inspires me through little things she does that keeps me typing away here and writing in my jornal. But when Im driving I get these random thoughts and when I'm surfing.... random thoughts today of course about a stupid boy. ( thats my problem they are boys i need me a MAN!)

I seem to pick the ones that just aren't that into me ( read the book though it was okay...need to see the movie) This particular guy we will call H20 seemed to be vibing with me..... calling haning texting the usual corting protcall. Come to find out he is courting another younger women and is confessing it to the electronic world! Im happy hes happy great but I suddenly stop to compare myself to the other young women and I get lost. Im not jelous let me put the disclaimer out there nor am I full of my self or feel like Im any better. but I always seem to loose to these spoiled brat girls that appear to have life handed to them ( well they brag anyway) this one lives at home is 2 years younger then me and well doens't present herself like a lady more like a sloppy young girl. and Hes totally digging on her. I mean clearly he is the one that needs to step his game up! I would like to think this is just what happens in Miami but the age old man and younger woman saga is now invading my friends parents divorces.

Its been all to easy for all 3 sets of men recently divorced to find women while all my friends moms are sitting back and single. Are they heart broken? are their standards higher? This dating game is tricky stuff

from crystal clear waters to snowy mountians

home sweet home

after such a fabulous weekend in the city I decided to retreat to PA to hang with the family and see my other friends. I made dinner for Lyndsay and Darryl ( my stepfather and Bestie) They were shocked at me cooking... Man i've been gone for a long time I made a fabulous chicken dinner it was amazing if I may say so myself! Now Im just unpacking my life and repacking for Panama! Its so hard this transition phase from house to house but Im adjusting well.

I just feel like arolling stone not sure where to call home yet. This house isn't the house I grew up in its the new house so its different being here and not exactly homely! But i love the house non the less and its great to be home!

omg

i just had a close encounter and thought that someone Im avoiding found me on facebook chat but it was his spam that contacted me. I responded cause I couldn't help myself and wonder why the strange message. But he didn't respond. ( maybe part of me wanted him to ) but for right now its all about me in NYC can't have some silly boy getting in my mix! Now to keep focused!