.......sigh...... yes things are still good they keep getting better! I mean I can always use more money who couldn't but I am sooo excited I will be in PUERTO RICO on the 17th for the first time in 12 years!!!! actually more like 13 years!!! I am sooo excited I can't sit still It'll be the first time all the kids on my mothers side are all there at once and with each other. It will also be the first time some of them meet. I am the oldest I know all of them except my Primas new baby boy!!!
My friends keep me pumped to CT was wonderful this weekend and Im looking forward to Miami in April to hug more of my love muffins. I've been just putting it all out there my raw emotions and well if people respond positive Im happy. Im not scared of hiding under a rock! I love life I really do and I love to hug I love to laugh and be all gay and corney. Yeah sometimes Im a little to hood for my own good. But above all I appreciate you for you
Monday, March 8, 2010
Friday, March 5, 2010
at the age
Im learning Im still learning every single day things that I assumed you learn early on. Im learning about love...friendship..myself...family. I often times get walked over trying to be the "nice one" I want everone to just smile and I always think people have these big huge hearts. WRONG!! I am learning not to throw terms around like "FRIEND" and it hurts my heart.
It funny thought how sometimes the people that help point out these lessons are infact guilty of hurting you in those same ways. I always post and walk around with this smile because I have always felt loved and blessed. My smile wont change just because some people shinned a fake smle my way. They may not have had MY best interest at heart the way I had their's. But its cool I'm happier now then i've been in a lil bit. The lessons I've learned have opened my eyes and my ears to listen more closely to the voice inside others. I will not be mistaken I will not be walked over and i will not loose my faith that people are good. They smile they laugh they love! As do i my heart is not closed its not an ice box its stronger. These moments have been like my heart at the gym stronger and bigger. HA now if only my abs were stronger LOL
Life is good I still believe in the fairytales the happy endings and the above all good even if some couldn't show that to me.
It funny thought how sometimes the people that help point out these lessons are infact guilty of hurting you in those same ways. I always post and walk around with this smile because I have always felt loved and blessed. My smile wont change just because some people shinned a fake smle my way. They may not have had MY best interest at heart the way I had their's. But its cool I'm happier now then i've been in a lil bit. The lessons I've learned have opened my eyes and my ears to listen more closely to the voice inside others. I will not be mistaken I will not be walked over and i will not loose my faith that people are good. They smile they laugh they love! As do i my heart is not closed its not an ice box its stronger. These moments have been like my heart at the gym stronger and bigger. HA now if only my abs were stronger LOL
Life is good I still believe in the fairytales the happy endings and the above all good even if some couldn't show that to me.
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
laughs looking back
I love the show Bones!!! I can't get enough of her quirky humor and his Patriotic spirit! Its too funny I love watching it after work and I can cruise past the commericals. Last night they were sharing embarrassing Childhood stories. Times that other children embarrassed them. KIDS ARE TRULY CRUEL. I wonder where we learn it from to be soo mean. Looking back I had my own stories that would make a 10 year old cry. I aso did my fair share of teasing. But as I was blowing my nose one story in particular came to mind. As I shared this with my roomie he suggested i go to therapy LOL.
In the 6th grade your not allow to just leave class you need to ask every time you want to use the bathroom. Some evil teachers would say ,"NO" since they assumed you were roaming the halls and not actually relieving yourself. STUPID teachers can really cause some of these issues were you get teased. For me when I was younger I would get really terrible head colds and get a filled up with mucus. My step-mother and father ALWAYS sent me to school. Well my runny nose was soo embarrassing and at the time I had no idea how to control my blowing. I would have to stand in the back of the class and blow my runny snotty nose and it would be soooooo LOUD and last well what seemed like forever!! I hated it sometimes I would be asked to step outside the door. but not go to the bathroom down the end of the hall. Great! let me stand in the hall way where there are only a few passer bys and it ECHOS!! ugh mortified what was worse was then they starting calling me SNOT NOSE :( Hey snot nose!! Hey are you gonna blow your nose some more :( it wasn't my fault at the time I didn't know how too. SHIT even now I find my self blowing and blowing.
Kids are cruel like really mean this was just one of the many. I know as we grow older and wiser we befriend each other and grow away from the snont nose days. Its funny that some of those kids are good friends to me know. BUT still SNOT NOSE :(
In the 6th grade your not allow to just leave class you need to ask every time you want to use the bathroom. Some evil teachers would say ,"NO" since they assumed you were roaming the halls and not actually relieving yourself. STUPID teachers can really cause some of these issues were you get teased. For me when I was younger I would get really terrible head colds and get a filled up with mucus. My step-mother and father ALWAYS sent me to school. Well my runny nose was soo embarrassing and at the time I had no idea how to control my blowing. I would have to stand in the back of the class and blow my runny snotty nose and it would be soooooo LOUD and last well what seemed like forever!! I hated it sometimes I would be asked to step outside the door. but not go to the bathroom down the end of the hall. Great! let me stand in the hall way where there are only a few passer bys and it ECHOS!! ugh mortified what was worse was then they starting calling me SNOT NOSE :( Hey snot nose!! Hey are you gonna blow your nose some more :( it wasn't my fault at the time I didn't know how too. SHIT even now I find my self blowing and blowing.
Kids are cruel like really mean this was just one of the many. I know as we grow older and wiser we befriend each other and grow away from the snont nose days. Its funny that some of those kids are good friends to me know. BUT still SNOT NOSE :(
Saturday, January 23, 2010
speeding bullet
just thoughts just lots and lots of random thoughts>>>>>> Sometimes life takes you by storm... Its moving at a rapid pace and it doens't seem to want to slow down>>> it doesn't seem to care if you are keeping up or getting sucked under by the under current.
I am 25 eeeekkk
my best friend is getting married this year eeeekkkk
I have been in my cell phone conrtact with Star for 5 years now
Im already going to Panama for visit #2
My stay in New York is real and I've been here a year Feb 13th
I have been out of college so long I know Im not going back at this point
Why is it occuring soooo quickly??? Christmas passed another birthday Tax season is here again! Is Mcdonalds going to offer the infamously disgusting buy 1 get 1 for a penny deal again??
My step sister has a 2 year old daughter....... no kids on deck for me any time soon
Life why are you moving sooo fast???? i need more time to smell the roses and observe the scene around me!!!
SLOW DOWN IM PUMPING THE BRAKES!!!!!
I am 25 eeeekkk
my best friend is getting married this year eeeekkkk
I have been in my cell phone conrtact with Star for 5 years now
Im already going to Panama for visit #2
My stay in New York is real and I've been here a year Feb 13th
I have been out of college so long I know Im not going back at this point
Why is it occuring soooo quickly??? Christmas passed another birthday Tax season is here again! Is Mcdonalds going to offer the infamously disgusting buy 1 get 1 for a penny deal again??
My step sister has a 2 year old daughter....... no kids on deck for me any time soon
Life why are you moving sooo fast???? i need more time to smell the roses and observe the scene around me!!!
SLOW DOWN IM PUMPING THE BRAKES!!!!!
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Christmas time :)
it was perfect I don't think I could have asked for more honestly. Except maybe my dad to behome but other then that it was perfect! Christmas this year was one of the best on the record books!! There was tons of food, desserts, and presents for everyone. I think everyone got everything they wanted and some!!!! It wasn't just about the presents ( although I was a bit spoiled at times) I just loved being home!!!
My mom had the best day ever!! It was soo nice to see her calm and enjoying herself. There was no alcohol so no fights were involved life was good. Almost too good. 2009 has been a year of amazing beginings and i know 2010 is going to keep the ball rolling for greatness!!
I love my baby brother who is not a baby while he towers over me!! But he worked soo hard and go everyone things they would really adore. MY mom's pants feel down at the sight of her D&G watch!
In the past were tears of sadness and pain of watching these events. As everyone argued and was drinking and it was a mess. Now the tears are of happiness that we all love being around each other. Its almost a little too perfect! hahaha you would think it was scripted but we are just making up for the last couple rough ones. I wouldn't say i want to wait 4 years for another fabulous one but if waiting 4 years makes it this perfect it was worth the wait!
My mom had the best day ever!! It was soo nice to see her calm and enjoying herself. There was no alcohol so no fights were involved life was good. Almost too good. 2009 has been a year of amazing beginings and i know 2010 is going to keep the ball rolling for greatness!!
I love my baby brother who is not a baby while he towers over me!! But he worked soo hard and go everyone things they would really adore. MY mom's pants feel down at the sight of her D&G watch!
In the past were tears of sadness and pain of watching these events. As everyone argued and was drinking and it was a mess. Now the tears are of happiness that we all love being around each other. Its almost a little too perfect! hahaha you would think it was scripted but we are just making up for the last couple rough ones. I wouldn't say i want to wait 4 years for another fabulous one but if waiting 4 years makes it this perfect it was worth the wait!
Sunday, December 20, 2009
when something happens that is drug up from the past you have been avoiding is it god giving you a precious gift to live happily ever after or is the devil testing to see if you can really hold out????
Why are the challenges at times do sneaky??? Like the answer is right in front of your face.. Or is it??? is this a test to see if you can continue avoiding it or is it finally time for you to settle the past and move forward????
UGHHH how do you decipher the two???
Why are the challenges at times do sneaky??? Like the answer is right in front of your face.. Or is it??? is this a test to see if you can continue avoiding it or is it finally time for you to settle the past and move forward????
UGHHH how do you decipher the two???
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