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if I did twitter it would read

My step father adn i are currently jamming out to LISA LISA!!!

I might just have to SPAZZ though

Errol

I had the most enlightening convo this evening with Errol ( my sisters man) and I have to say he not only opened my mind up to myself but took it to another level with how I feel about him and HE took it to another level with his relationship With Angie and I approve.

The man is about to be on blast here but he will be okay;
The man sent her an email explaining the reasons that he loved her and he listed them after proclaiming I don't love you because I have to I love you because of you and I choose too...
He loves her because she is strong, independent, a great mother, an amazing friend, he can be his self around her, she makes him smile, shes a student, hard working, has a HUGE heart, isn't afraid to be her and roll solo... he said it wasn't just because of the baby that he loves her. That he really loves her for her...

The opening sentence brought tears to my eyes i boohooed like a bitch i read it twice. He had no idea i read it when he was offering me advice reminding me of my exuberant energy I should not be wasting on anyone. I listened tonight I listened good and hard. i hear the words and now I will live them. maybe I really am learning

I know I am going to wake myself up from the nightmare!!!

I know that im going to stop pretending its a Dream when its the complete opposite

I hope this time I get it forreal!!!

my brain hurts i think I think wayyyyy toooo much

i can't decide if its a good thing or a bad thing either way my mind races sooo quickly and it spins in too many directions


good night world

fashion victim

I am at a loss right now.....

I am preparing for spring in New York I am also preparing for summer. this means I can finally enjoy getting dressed!!! The only problem is I can't seem to pick a style... I can't decide how I should be dressing...... ( i suppose actually using my equinox membership is the first step)

The idea of dressing like Carrie from Sex & the City was out when Cab fair was raised after 1950! There is no way I can wear heels everywhere and take the train. More so since I will fall down the steps.

I can't give up my sneakers and boy shorts its not gonna happen!!! I like color and I love to wears heels and dresses as much as I love sneakers and tees!!! But damn I can't wear sandals around this dirty ass city! and Well heels for pleasure as we discussed are out....

I need some SUGGESTIONS!!! I am tired of looking like I am 16 years old I'm 24 and yes I do have a sense of style but I love to be comfortable!!!! I will keep searching

Hedi Klum said you should never look like you tried to hard even if you did! I don't want to try to hard but I want to look like I DID!

the small treasures

There is this constant struggle to figure out in life what your purpose is and you hope to fulfill everything you dream of before your time card expires. I have been fortunate enough to have made some large check marks on my list of things to do while visiting planet earth. I still have many confusing questions about the future and where I should be at during this point of my life. Like everyone else I sit and day dream all day about different situations and scenarios. I wish for more money a better job a wardrobe that fits the body I wish I had. I wish for that perfect breath taking relationship of unconditional love. I wanna be like the girls in the movies as Ashanti once sang. But as the passing of a friend of a friend has me thinking.
I am so lucky compared to so many and even if I never get that Brooke Burke Body and the J Lo wardrobe. I may never change the world like Obama and well there is always a chance that the only prince charming in my life will be my dad. I can say I have been living a dream for anyone. As Matt's passing made many people stop and remember the shortness of life. When they prepare to hang the Jersey in his honor at his favorite bar it makes me think how lucky we are to meet the people who will forever remember our characters as we pass.
Its challenging to stay positive and greatful in life as there is always more more more! But we live we learn and we can only feel blessed for what we are given